We're into February and I haven't really thought of anything I've really wanted to share with all of you. I've gone back and forth on plenty of topics. I've thought about how to make this blog better and more interesting, how to grow it, etc., but until I can better implement my plans and think about it a little longer, I'll leave you with this post today:
If you read my first post from when I returned home, you'll remember that I wrote about how hard it was to come back. I felt alone and lost. I had forgotten who I was and everything had a dark cloud around it. It felt like I was having an identity crisis. I didn't want to be the same person I was before I left on my mission, but I knew that I couldn't stay at the full-fledge 'Sister Linzey' state I was in. Now I'm at the point where I have my entire life ahead of me. When I was first at college, I really only planned up until my mission. There was a general idea of what to do after, but all that entailed was to continue my social work major. Then, as time drew closer for me to come home, the reality of life was hitting my in the face, and then suddenly I was staring it right in the eye and I had never felt so overwhelmed in my life. Now there's nothing to really stop me from the rest of the next 60+ years I hope to live. So, as of recent I've been on this journey of self discovery.
I've really been trying to align my will with the Lord's. I've been counseling with Him about some recent decisions, educational and career paths, and so forth. As of now I've been feeling pretty good about everything. I've been staying on top of homework, attempting to go outside of my comfort zone, making sure I have time to play the piano and write, and making time for God. I've been exercising a little more (we'll see how long that lasts).
With the new year a lot of us make resolutions. I don't think I've really ever been one to try and make them because I know myself and will never keep those resolutions past January 2nd. Previously on this blog, though, I've had little life mottos for the year, something to continue to remind myself to find joy.
I think 2019 is going to be a year of continuing to find out who I need to be and who the Lord wants me to be. It'll be a path to find greater happiness. It'll be a lot of relying on the Lord because sometimes I still feel lost. Just today I was sitting on my bed and looking at my mission photos I've hung around, feeling that sense of longing for what I had then. But Tauren Wells and Lauren Daigle rescued me and helped me feel God's love so I could move forward and recognize all I have ahead of me. C.S Lewis did say, "There are far, far better things ahead than any we have left behind."
The future is a pretty scary thing. I'm at the very beginning of my 20s and searching for purpose and identity and belonging. It's a time I'll look back on someday and hopefully be able to say, "I made it."
I don't want to forget the things I love and the things I've learned in the last nearly 21 years of life. I want to use the experiences I've had to continue forward and grow. Since this blog started in July 2014, a lot has happened. Overcoming depression and anxiety was (on occasion is) a nearly constant battle, being comfortable in and with my skin is a process, and my career goals continue to stretch me into this person I never imagined I could become. The greatest part about all of this is that every thing has been Heavenly Father's plan for me and I full heartedly believe that.
God has a plan for all of us and I think we're all on our own journey of self discovery. It looks different for all of us and each of us are at different stages in our lives, but all of us are finding our place in this world. For many it's finding that divine nature we know is within us and understanding who we are as sons and daughters of God.
I hope this post was meaningful to someone somewhere. I hope you realize your potential and all you have to offer. Ultimately I hope we can all grow and help those around us grow too. In today's world we need to band together.
My motto is simply the word pictured above; "Bloom."
As always, thanks for reading!
---Maggie
If you read my first post from when I returned home, you'll remember that I wrote about how hard it was to come back. I felt alone and lost. I had forgotten who I was and everything had a dark cloud around it. It felt like I was having an identity crisis. I didn't want to be the same person I was before I left on my mission, but I knew that I couldn't stay at the full-fledge 'Sister Linzey' state I was in. Now I'm at the point where I have my entire life ahead of me. When I was first at college, I really only planned up until my mission. There was a general idea of what to do after, but all that entailed was to continue my social work major. Then, as time drew closer for me to come home, the reality of life was hitting my in the face, and then suddenly I was staring it right in the eye and I had never felt so overwhelmed in my life. Now there's nothing to really stop me from the rest of the next 60+ years I hope to live. So, as of recent I've been on this journey of self discovery.
I've really been trying to align my will with the Lord's. I've been counseling with Him about some recent decisions, educational and career paths, and so forth. As of now I've been feeling pretty good about everything. I've been staying on top of homework, attempting to go outside of my comfort zone, making sure I have time to play the piano and write, and making time for God. I've been exercising a little more (we'll see how long that lasts).
With the new year a lot of us make resolutions. I don't think I've really ever been one to try and make them because I know myself and will never keep those resolutions past January 2nd. Previously on this blog, though, I've had little life mottos for the year, something to continue to remind myself to find joy.
I think 2019 is going to be a year of continuing to find out who I need to be and who the Lord wants me to be. It'll be a path to find greater happiness. It'll be a lot of relying on the Lord because sometimes I still feel lost. Just today I was sitting on my bed and looking at my mission photos I've hung around, feeling that sense of longing for what I had then. But Tauren Wells and Lauren Daigle rescued me and helped me feel God's love so I could move forward and recognize all I have ahead of me. C.S Lewis did say, "There are far, far better things ahead than any we have left behind."
The future is a pretty scary thing. I'm at the very beginning of my 20s and searching for purpose and identity and belonging. It's a time I'll look back on someday and hopefully be able to say, "I made it."
I don't want to forget the things I love and the things I've learned in the last nearly 21 years of life. I want to use the experiences I've had to continue forward and grow. Since this blog started in July 2014, a lot has happened. Overcoming depression and anxiety was (on occasion is) a nearly constant battle, being comfortable in and with my skin is a process, and my career goals continue to stretch me into this person I never imagined I could become. The greatest part about all of this is that every thing has been Heavenly Father's plan for me and I full heartedly believe that.
God has a plan for all of us and I think we're all on our own journey of self discovery. It looks different for all of us and each of us are at different stages in our lives, but all of us are finding our place in this world. For many it's finding that divine nature we know is within us and understanding who we are as sons and daughters of God.
I hope this post was meaningful to someone somewhere. I hope you realize your potential and all you have to offer. Ultimately I hope we can all grow and help those around us grow too. In today's world we need to band together.
My motto is simply the word pictured above; "Bloom."
As always, thanks for reading!
---Maggie
I think every one who takes the time to consider the future feels a bit lost. It is good to know there is a path for each of us.
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