Yesterday I started my final semester at MWCC. It's kind of a weird feeling to think I'm so close to the end. To be quite honest it freaks me out that I've somehow made it to this point. I feel like I haven't been a part of the program for that long. It's like just yesterday I was sitting in my first class for the first time. Now I'm an (almost) experienced college student. By May 18th I'll be graduated from college!
Already I feel kind of overwhelmed, though. There's a lot of paper writing, reading, and in my Human Growth and Development class, 65% of my grade comes from the four tests I'll be taking throughout the semester. I'm really hoping I do well on all four of those tests because even if I do great on the papers I have to write, that 35% will only help me get so far. It all just feels like a lot right now. I keep on telling myself I'll be okay. I've done a lot of hard, challenging things in my life. So when I start to freak out already about everything I'm going to have to do, I remind myself to find the positives. After all, what is the purpose of this blog? So, when I've sat down in my classes today and yesterday and I read through my syllabi, I say, "I've got this. I can handle it. I like my internship. I like my major. These classes will teach me a lot of good things. I'm a part of this program for a reason. I can do this." Honestly, it helps for a bit and I calm down a little, then I overthink it all over again. But, I'm confident this semester will teach me a lot about balance, hard work, confidence, and plenty of other things. Still, part of me wishes my last semester wasn't going to be so busy...
(Positive attitude!)
I'm trying to grow and expand. Often times I let my fears get in the way and I stop myself from getting where I want to be. I'm the only one who can really fix that. 2016 and my final semester are full of new things and experiences. They're providing more room to grow and I'm excited for whatever happens!
Already I feel kind of overwhelmed, though. There's a lot of paper writing, reading, and in my Human Growth and Development class, 65% of my grade comes from the four tests I'll be taking throughout the semester. I'm really hoping I do well on all four of those tests because even if I do great on the papers I have to write, that 35% will only help me get so far. It all just feels like a lot right now. I keep on telling myself I'll be okay. I've done a lot of hard, challenging things in my life. So when I start to freak out already about everything I'm going to have to do, I remind myself to find the positives. After all, what is the purpose of this blog? So, when I've sat down in my classes today and yesterday and I read through my syllabi, I say, "I've got this. I can handle it. I like my internship. I like my major. These classes will teach me a lot of good things. I'm a part of this program for a reason. I can do this." Honestly, it helps for a bit and I calm down a little, then I overthink it all over again. But, I'm confident this semester will teach me a lot about balance, hard work, confidence, and plenty of other things. Still, part of me wishes my last semester wasn't going to be so busy...
(Positive attitude!)
On top of all of my school work, I have an internship. I have to do at least 10 hours a week in order to complete a 150 hours by April 30th. Right now though, things are going well and I enjoy it. I just have to learn to balance all of my responsibilities. It'll be a good lesson.
Yesterday I created a new goal for myself. It happened when I was sitting in my Human Services Seminar class. We were going over one of the papers we'll have to write in the future. Basically we have to visit a human services agency and get information from them, and write down our experience. I think the paper is supposed to be like, 6 pages (??). Normally I have a lot of questions in my head during classes, but I never really ask them. Typically I wait for someone else to ask the same question. 9/10 times it works. If not, I send an email with my question if I can't figure it out myself (or just guess and hope for the best).
Now, I had a question and I thought I would wait to see if someone else asked it... they did. Then I had another question and before I could fully process what was happening my hand was in the air. It took me a good two seconds to realize what was happening and my eyes got a little wide, but it was too late. My professor called on me. Luckily I was able to verbalize my question and my professor was able to answer it. My face only burned a little. To you this might not sound like some kind of slightly horrifying situation, or a big deal. For me, it kind of was. And my thought process afterwards was, "Oh my gosh. I have to tell mom and dad. Oh. Wow. Maybe I should make this a thing. Maybe I'll make a goal for myself. Yeah. Okay. I'll say one thing in one of my classes every week." And there you go. We'll see what happens next week. Perhaps I'll report back.
That goal kind of is my theme for the new year. Like my post-ly quote said in my last blog post at the end, "Don't be afraid to fail. Be afraid not to try." This year I'm going to try new things and keep on pushing myself to be out there. I'm going to use my voice a little more. So far, things are going well. I've had a few more experiences where I've shared my thoughts/observations, and asked questions. I may or may not get slightly excited when this happens...
Today's (rather tonight's) quote is this:
Yesterday I created a new goal for myself. It happened when I was sitting in my Human Services Seminar class. We were going over one of the papers we'll have to write in the future. Basically we have to visit a human services agency and get information from them, and write down our experience. I think the paper is supposed to be like, 6 pages (??). Normally I have a lot of questions in my head during classes, but I never really ask them. Typically I wait for someone else to ask the same question. 9/10 times it works. If not, I send an email with my question if I can't figure it out myself (or just guess and hope for the best).
Now, I had a question and I thought I would wait to see if someone else asked it... they did. Then I had another question and before I could fully process what was happening my hand was in the air. It took me a good two seconds to realize what was happening and my eyes got a little wide, but it was too late. My professor called on me. Luckily I was able to verbalize my question and my professor was able to answer it. My face only burned a little. To you this might not sound like some kind of slightly horrifying situation, or a big deal. For me, it kind of was. And my thought process afterwards was, "Oh my gosh. I have to tell mom and dad. Oh. Wow. Maybe I should make this a thing. Maybe I'll make a goal for myself. Yeah. Okay. I'll say one thing in one of my classes every week." And there you go. We'll see what happens next week. Perhaps I'll report back.
That goal kind of is my theme for the new year. Like my post-ly quote said in my last blog post at the end, "Don't be afraid to fail. Be afraid not to try." This year I'm going to try new things and keep on pushing myself to be out there. I'm going to use my voice a little more. So far, things are going well. I've had a few more experiences where I've shared my thoughts/observations, and asked questions. I may or may not get slightly excited when this happens...
Today's (rather tonight's) quote is this:
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As always, thanks for reading!
---Maggie
Awesome blog! Thanks, Maggie! You're going to be great!
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